What changes if you imagine you are ashamed?
Find where the mind can lie in alert motionlessness.
What are you feeling?
If not that feeling, what might you be feeling?
Locate what will complete the experience in one gesture.
How old is that thing you’re gripping?
Lie in the sunlight.
Who are you speaking to?
Who are you protecting against?
Where, in your body, is the feeling?
Pause.
Loosen any knot.
Now put that down.
Imagine your chest is spacious and filled with light.
What is the most beautiful thing in the world?
Could your breath be very interesting?
Think of this time last year.
Think of this time next year.
Is it really that disgusting?
What if it was already clean?
Imagine they know and still love you.
You will not die.
What is the most colorful thing in the room?
Imagine your mind is the size of the room.
Are you running? Where to? Where from?
What would you like to do next?
What if there was no one to blame?
Make a wish.
What emotion do you never feel?
What if it’s enough?
Pretend time isn’t real.
Pretend we’re all one organism.
Lay down, noting the points where your body touches the surface.
How tired are you?
I’m so sorry, and I love you.
Wittgenstein was right when he said that one’s subjectivity can’t be communicated. Writing is actually frequently a way for me to deflect from fully experiencing reality, so why even do it? Erudition has always been protective. If I had nothing to protect I would just ask you to hold me and reward me for doing very easy things. Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent. Love, I’m aching to ask you a question but I want to do it without words.